14.8.12

Fossils


Time sits and looks at me like treacle.
Like a thick fog.
I can barely breathe for it.

I can't help but think
that i would love
to watch us back.

I feel the weight of it
surrounding me
like wet plaster
and I am encased within.

I am fossilised.

13.6.12

Exhibitions


Upcoming events for you to mark in your mind-diaries. You will be tested later.

Borderline Ballardian - Group Art Exhibition
6th July - 18th July 2012
Open night: 6th July from 6.00pm.
C.A.D.S. – 7 Smithfield, Sheffield , S3 7AR
http://www.sheffieldartforge.com
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Solo Exhibition - The Civic, Barnsley
19th July - 31st August 2012
The Panorama, The Civic, Hanson St, Barnsley, S70 2HZ


Islington Arts Factory: Summer Salon 2012
20th July - 10th August 2012
Private View: 20th July 6.30pm -9.30pm
2 Parkhurst Rd, London, N7 OSF


"There Is Something About Being Alive"
Collaborative art/poetry book release by John Lomas, Ryan Vodden and Peter Jackson.
Coming soon.

6.3.12

Previous thoughts

I just rediscovered this piece of writing from around May/June 2009. Perhaps it is finally time to share this with you. I take comfort from the fact that despite the dark nature of the thoughts, I landed on a sense of light. Every time I read it, it feels like a huge sigh of relief.


IT KEEPS MOVING. I CAN'T STOP IT. IT TRAVELS
AT A CONSTANT, REGARDLESS.
EVERY FLEETING MOMENT
PASSING ME BY WITH NOTHING TO SHOW.
EVERY SECOND. EACH AND EVERY FUCKING SECOND
FADING OUT WHILE I LOOK AWAY.
I SPEND MY TIME SPENDING TIME.
I'M AWARE OF EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS TURNING
INTO THE PAST AS IT IS HAPPENING. TODAY
IS GONE AND I ACHIEVED NOTHING. I LOST.
IS IT ALL ABOUT LOSING? IS IT A LOSING PROCESS?
MAKE THE BEST OF WHAT YOU CAN WHILE IT
SLIDES AWAY? IS THAT IT? OR IS THERE
SOMETHING TO GAIN? THERE MUST BE
SOMETHING TO GAIN.* **

*OTHERWISE, STOP
THINKING ABOUT IT AND JUST ENJOY THE RIDE.

(I HATE THAT PHRASE)

** OTHERWISE YOU START ON FULL
AND FINISH ON EMPTY. YOU ARE BORN
WITH POTENTIAL + EVERYDAY ANOTHER
PIECE OF IT DIES.
I NEED TO ACHIEVE SOMETHING OR APPRECIATE
SOMETHING OR ENJOY SOMETHING.
ENJOYMENT IS JUST WHAT YOU DO WHEN YOU
AREN'T ACHIEVING ANYTHING. THERE IS
NOTHING TO ACHIEVE.


THERE IS NOTHING TO ACHIEVE. I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS
THERE TO BE ACHIEVED.
IF THERE IS NOTHING TO ACHIEVE, NOONE EVER
HAD POTENTIAL. THEREFORE NOONE LOSES.
WE NEVER HAD ANYTHING TO START WITH.
ANYTHING WE PICK UP ON THE WAY IS A BONUS.




























20.1.12

Mental Breakdown Diary - Volume 2

mental breakdown diary. part 6.

I feel like I am watching what is happening now from a future perspective.
"Would you be doing what you are doing now, if you knew? 
If only you knew."

I used to think that there was only ever the present.
The beating heart of time. 
A pulsating moment.
Now.

But I have realised 
That everything is the 
past.

4.1.12

Handstand





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